Aiiiiiiite. How’s it going?
You’ll never guess what. I only bloody finished my Masters last Friday.
Okay: EXAGGERATION. I still have a teeeeensy-weeeensy little dissertation to do… and I still have absolutely no clue what to write about. The proposal I wrote for it ended up being 1800 words of high caliber BS (which I 100% knew when I handed it in), so we’re full on stuck on square 1 right now. As in… glued to the goddamn square with extra-strength superglue.
No worries. We’ll totally figure it out.
But I have no more lectures to go to and only one source of stress for the whole summer. I’m loving that fact. Although if the weather stays the way it’s been recently until August, I don’t really foresee a great deal of work being done…
That’s okay, Vitamin D (that comes from the sun) is cancer-fighting, dontcha know. Although you should definitely make sure that you suncream yourself up to the eyeballs, or all that goodness is completely undone. Plus you look like a complete twat…
All this sunshine and relaxation has got me remembering what’s really important to me. Sometimes (okay, often) I get pissed off when things don’t work out the way that I want them to, or I find myself focussing way too much on things that I wish would happen, rather than just being present in what is. I am blessed/cursed with a wild imagination, which keeps me living in a dreamworld half the time. Part of me blames disney movies, for completely distorting my view of real life forever…
The rest of me blames everyone else for not sticking to the script I’ve given them in my head.
I joke. Life would be so incredibly boring if people were so predictable.
But a very wise friend of mine mentioned the other day that she believes everyone is on this earth until they fulfill their purpose. The thought made me tear up a little at the time, purely because it makes me really emotional to think of my Mum fulfilling her own purpose, even if I wasn’t ready to let her go; but it’s also a truly comforting way of looking at things. It doesn’t matter whether things work out the way I wanted them to in my head, because they will work out the way they were meant to, even if I don’t understand the reason right now.
Instead, it’s the moments along the way that are the nicest. It’s those connections that surprise you, whether they last 3 years or 3 minutes, that will stick around in your head.
This amazing sunshine might not last forever, but the hours you spent laughing in it with your friends are timeless.
Those burn marks will stick around for a fair while too.